Sometimes I wish I had never know the truth. But I can't help it. Once you know the truth, it'll stay with you forever. Truth hurts. Yes. I totally agree with that. But you have to be optimistic about everything. I'm always trying to be optimistic. But sometimes I failed in doing that. It would be the opposite. No worries. I'll never show you guys whether I'm sad or frustrated whatsoever. I'll always put on a smile on my face. But no one knows whats happening inside me. I don't know why but my mind wanted to click on that badly. Something maybe I should not write it down here. And I know it was in the past. But I kept remembering every moments of it. Every minutes and even every seconds of my life during that period. I'm happy now cause everything seems to be perfect but sometimes I can't help but remember everything all over again. It's bad. Yes I know. I'm not strong. I don't bother what people gonna thing about me. F*ck them. It's my life I'm talking about. Not your life or your parents life. So don't bother. Thank you very much.
Dearest GF..
I love you.. And I will still love you no matter what comes in our way. Call me emotional or whatsoever but what I know is that I really love you. Forgive me for all my wrongdoings and all the mistakes I had done towards you. I disagree when you said you lose me once cause its not you.. But its me who've lose you once. And once is enough to make me a totally different person like what I use to be. You know what happened to me. I don't have to write it here. And I don't wanna lose you one more time. I've had enough. 19 years of living and I think I've gone through a lot of rough journey in life. Thank you very much for accepting me in your life and accept me the way I am. I'll always be there for you baby...
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